“My Heart” & Yours
Most of the time, the songs that I write are more honest than I am. Sometimes I don’t play certain songs for people because I’m not ready for that sort of honesty.I don’t write many happy songs, at least not lately. Which is odd because I’m a fairly upbeat guy. So I’ve got a few theories as to why this might be the case. It might be because life wears down on you, and you lose that part of yourself. Or it could be because the songs are the only place where these types of ideas can find a release- like a dream where your subconscious is trying to tell you something. Or perhaps I don’t write songs when I’m happy. You know, a celebration requires a few friends and depression requires solitude.
Songs have become my way of finding beauty in the midst of chaos and pain. It’s a way of finding redemption for mistakes and regrets that I have. In this way I feel like the creative process brings me closer to God. As a creator of a song I get to take all these broken fragments of failure and chaos and weave together something beautiful and meaningful. Decay. Death. Pain. Failure. And if God is a songwriter then these fallen leaves of mine can be redeemed.
“My Heart” is a project that I have been writing and working on for over 2 years now. I have written songs for this album that I think relate to the world around us, but also pertains to how we perceive God. This album I believe God will challenge those who listen. The record is a simple prayer, an offering to God. Things have happened in my life in the past 2 years that i am confused about. Things that happen to everyone. We all make mistakes, we all fall, and this Album is simply telling God, “I give you my heart”. That is my prayer. For me, for you, for all of us. I hope you get this album and find something in it that helps and speaks to you. I thank you for all of your support, i couldn’t do any of this without you.